I’ve been crying my eyes out this week. I have never felt lonelier in my life. I have almost no friends and my relationship with my brother is almost non-existent. I wish it was different. I wish he could at least try to understand me, but he doesn’t want to or doesn’t care. You have no idea of everything I’ve done for him to accept me or love me. Sometimes, I feel like if I get to the point where they have to take me to the hospital, he’ll finally pay me attention and love me back. I know it’s wrong for me to think like that but I just can’t help it. I feel unworthy of love.